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-Collide-Candle<- just bc she wrote the original
did-system-did
reimeichan

Do yall ever discover a "new" alter and you kinda squint at them and go "waaaaait a fucking second, I know you, you're the one from <insert time period here> who did the <insert thing here>"

It's like finding an old sibling/friend/rival/acquaintance/coworker/whatever that you didn't even know you had

Remembering the time Candle switched in, got quietly upset because of how obvious it was that Donnie got us dressed that morning and then she was immediately he/him-ed by our partner and it actually upset her lol

the curse of sharing a body

Just accidentally called Midnight “Monarch” and I’m writing this down so I dont forget bc thats kinda a baller name

I cant keep doing this to myself. I can’t keep convincing myself people will get better for me. Just because I dont want to be mad doesnt mean I should just forget it. It’s bad for me and I need to leave. I just wish I could see that. I need to stop drinking so much also. Its going to become a problem. Its literally a monday.

Anyway my person is in my bed right now and I’m on my bathroom floor because I dont know what to do. I promised myself that they would go home tonight and here they are. I’m so mad at myself I can’t even stick to my one rule!!! But that only proves that they’re going through the same struggle with controling themselves and that its hard. But I can’t get over this and more and more lately I’m finding myself having moments where I dont want to be around them. I think that has to mean something. That and I think they’re being kinda uh, controlling? Manipulative? They keep telling me how much they love me and how much I mean to them. And they keep telling me that they’re doing things to hurt themselves (subtle things but still.) And because I’m not as mad as most people would be that means that we get eachother so much and most people dont understand because we arent the same. I dont even think I can say for sure I know its coming from a genuine place! It just sucks they keep getting away with this. It sucks that I let them because its working on me. I wish I could just see through it all and move on. I dont know how to stop things when they know they can pull me back in so easily. I practically begged them to stay tonight. After promising myself I wouldnt let them, instead I begged. I dont know what to do.

I'll refrain from tagging a name just in case im wrongbut I am over this allalso I'm drinking alone on my bathroom floor on a work night.just in case you needed to know how far this has goneI hate my life.

I sick with sleepy but I think I’m proud of myself for surviving under these conditions. And I’m doing so well of it too! Only one scare with the scary guy in brain today, otherwise he hasnt even been around! Which is cool bc I cant handle it lol. Would like to survive at least until the end of this week. I go get water and then sleep immediately oh shit I do not feel good.

poor me thoI'm going through it allI have a new job btwhavent gone in yet but I was hired on the spotactually. i didnt even have an interview. my new boss just bought me two shots and then told me I was hiredI'm going to die in that building. i just know itif I can even make it to my first shift that is loltomorrow I see my person again but this time sober and alone in my houselast night I got the most drunk ive ever been with them and then we parted waysso things were good but I'm afraid things are going to be weird nowesp because whore has been so upset about it. shes legit angry and wants to leave thembut we arent going to do that just yet because uh. idkI'm stupid? and I believe in love?? i shouldnt. but I do.we'll see how it goes!!yes I'm aware my life is a fucking mess. I dont know what I'm doing. I have no car even anymore. it's a lot.I need water and I need sleepand tomorrow I remember to eat at least two meals! thats the plan at leastgn tumblr

Might be in need of name suggestions for an alter who currently goes by the name “whore” and also identifies with the title “bimbo stoner” she was looking at names at some point and liked Jordan but didnt want to commit to it. If anyone has suggestions I would love to hear them lol

need to find her a name so I can intro her to my sister who now knows about the disorder and also Candle but no one else yet aaI also need another name for another of us but I'll ask in a seperate post later